FROM THE HEART (re-post)

FROM THE HEART

by  Terri  Byars  October 2000 to January 2001 /All rights reserved

Depression.  Hopelessness.
All seems lost. Nowhere to go.
Want to leave. Hit bottom.
All is useless.  What is the point?
I cannot do this anymore.  Are you there, Lord?
Return me to the place of joy.
Trust.  Rest.  Confidence.
Confidence in You alone.
I want to forget.  Laugh a little.
Live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.
Read the word. Live in His love.
In Your light, Lord.  Let me/I live there alone.
Get rid of darkness. Take me to the Light.
Pure Joy

Confession.  Repentance.
Not my will, but Your will be done, Lord.
Tears.  Grief.  Hopelessness.
Wondering what is wrong, how to fix it.
I can’t do it in my strength.
I cannot proceed until all my strength disappears.
Transformed.  Renewed.
A living sacrifice presented to God.
Tears.  Grief.  Brokenness.  Hope.
Hope in God for the help of His presence.
I cannot stand.  I have fallen.
I have to be carried. Lord, lift me up.
Confession.  Repentance.

Brokenness.  Childlikeness.
Total desperate dependence on the Lord.
A need.  A longing.  To be satisfied.
Never able to be filled.  A need to be empty.
I can’t be filled until I am empty.
I cannot be satisfied until all my desires disappear.
Crucified.  Dead to self.
Following Him closely every moment.
A need.  A longing.  To hear His heart.
A pure heart.  Single-minded.  Holiness.
I can’t see without His eyes.
I cannot walk, Lord, hold my hand.
Brokenness.  Childlikeness.

Selflessness.  Generosity.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition.
Focused inward.  Self-importance.
What can be done to fix my problem?
It’s not about me and my problem.
It’s not most important to get my needs met.
Humility. Think of others.
Consider others needs above my own.
Focused outward.  Self-abasement.
Other’s need are more important than my own.
Lord, what can I do for others?
God’s grace will abound toward you.
Selflessness. Generosity. 

Closeness.  Intimacy.
Single-minded, wholehearted devotion to God.
Affections.  Desires.  To have the answers.
Never knowing.  A need to be dependent.
I can’t be secure until I let go.
I cannot be secure until I step forward without knowing.
Hang on loosely.  Lean on Him.
Moment-by-moment clinging to Him.
Affections.  Desires.  Seek those things above.
Confidence in Him.  He knows.  He’s Daddy.
I cannot walk without holding His hand.
I cannot survive without looking to Him.
Closeness.  Intimacy.

Endurance. Perseverance.
Falling. Crawling. Moving forward.
Trust myself. I can do it.  I have the ability.
Try and try. Striving. Straining. Pressing.
I can’t keep going on my strength.
I cannot do this anymore without His Spirit.
Not my righteousness, but His.
Walking on. Press on toward the goal.
Trust Him.  Availability. Faithfulness.
Keep my eyes on Jesus who endured the cross.
I will keep going.  Earnestly pray. Have Faith.
Seek peace. Pursue righteousness.
Endurance. Perseverance.

RUN THE RACE TO WIN!!

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STOP THE PAIN!!

PainLady I was talking to a nurse today who told me many patients proclaim, “I didn’t know it would hurt this much” when they come out of surgery.  And they expect to be medicated until the pain is completely gone.  But it is not always safe to be medicated that much.  Sometimes we just have to live with some pain until we are healed.  Medication is only to alleviate some of the pain, not necessarily to totally remove it.

That’s the way it is with our emotions too.  Sometimes we want to totally get rid of the pain of rejection, depression, anger, hatred, emotional pain of abuse, etc.  And that’s why I believe addictions are so much of a problem today.  Whether it is gambling, drugs, alcohol, shopping, eating, watching TV or whatever one chooses to escape from the pain, many of us have succumb to addictions.  I know I have my moments of trying to escape the pain of this world.  How can we solve this problem?

Know That Pain Will Come, it’s a Promise14aae7048c09c0c60020fb1dc4196650

We were told there was going to be pain.  Jesus said “In this world you will have trouble, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33.  Jesus was a man full of sorry and He has grieved because of the state of man’s soul who has not trusted in Him. He told us that we should be ready for pain and sorrow.  That means I should not expect to be happy every day.  I have joy because Jesus is with me, supporting me through difficult times, but it is not always fun or easy or pleasant.

Know That There is a Solution,  It’s also a Promise

Jesus said, “Be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”  He is always with us.  He will never leave.  He wants to carry our burdens.  The bible is full of verses that comfort the soul.  The greatest comfort is knowing that this fallen world is only temporary.  One day I will pass on into the spiritual realm and live life with Jesus face to face.  This world will pass away, but the love of the Lord lasts forever.

Learn to Live with Some Pain

Knowing that there will be pain helps me expect it and prepare for it.  Knowing that it is temporary lets me realize that I won’t be in pain forever.  Also as I grow older, I know that physical pain is a part of life.  I seldom take pain medication.  I just live with it for a while.  I know it’s going away eventually, when He comes to take me Home to Heaven.

BE OF GOOD CHEER!!

FROM THE HEART

by  Terri  Byars  October 2000 to January 2001 /All rights reserved

Depression.  Hopelessness.
All seems lost. Nowhere to go.
Want to leave. Hit bottom.
All is useless.  What is the point?
I cannot do this anymore.  Are you there, Lord?
Return me to the place of joy.
Trust.  Rest.  Confidence.
Confidence in You alone.
I want to forget.  Laugh a little.
Live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.
Read the word. Live in His love.
In Your light, Lord.  Let me/I live there alone.
Get rid of darkness. Take me to the Light.
Pure Joy

Confession.  Repentance.
Not my will, but Your will be done, Lord.
Tears.  Grief.  Hopelessness.
Wondering what is wrong, how to fix it.
I can’t do it in my strength.
I cannot proceed until all my strength disappears.
Transformed.  Renewed.
A living sacrifice presented to God.
Tears.  Grief.  Brokenness.  Hope.
Hope in God for the help of His presence.
I cannot stand.  I have fallen.
I have to be carried. Lord, lift me up.
Confession.  Repentance.

Brokenness.  Childlikeness.
Total desperate dependence on the Lord.
A need.  A longing.  To be satisfied.
Never able to be filled.  A need to be empty.
I can’t be filled until I am empty.
I cannot be satisfied until all my desires disappear.
Crucified.  Dead to self.
Following Him closely every moment.
A need.  A longing.  To hear His heart.
A pure heart.  Single-minded.  Holiness.
I can’t see without His eyes.
I cannot walk, Lord, hold my hand.
Brokenness.  Childlikeness.

Selflessness.  Generosity.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition.
Focused inward.  Self-importance.
What can be done to fix my problem?
It’s not about me and my problem.
It’s not most important to get my needs met.
Humility. Think of others.
Consider others needs above my own.
Focused outward.  Self-abasement.
Other’s need are more important than my own.
Lord, what can I do for others?
God’s grace will abound toward you.
Selflessness. Generosity. 

Closeness.  Intimacy.
Single-minded, wholehearted devotion to God.
Affections.  Desires.  To have the answers.
Never knowing.  A need to be dependent.
I can’t be secure until I let go.
I cannot be secure until I step forward without knowing.
Hang on loosely.  Lean on Him.
Moment-by-moment clinging to Him.
Affections.  Desires.  Seek those things above.
Confidence in Him.  He knows.  He’s Daddy.
I cannot walk without holding His hand.
I cannot survive without looking to Him.
Closeness.  Intimacy.

Endurance. Perseverance.
Falling. Crawling. Moving forward.
Trust myself. I can do it.  I have the ability.
Try and try. Striving. Straining. Pressing.
I can’t keep going on my strength.
I cannot do this anymore without His Spirit.
Not my righteousness, but His.
Walking on. Press on toward the goal.
Trust Him.  Availability. Faithfulness.
Keep my eyes on Jesus who endured the cross.
I will keep going.  Earnestly pray. Have Faith.
Seek peace. Pursue righteousness.
Endurance. Perseverance.

RUN THE RACE TO WIN!!

CAST YOUR BURDENS

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When I think about this, I like to think of a fisherman.  When he casts his line, he casts it out there too far to reach.  It flies forward hundreds of feet and sinks into the ocean.

When I cast my cares on Jesus, I need not just lay it as His feet, just within reach, then pray a while, pick my burden back up and leave.  How many times have I done that?

When I cast my burden into the depths of the sea, Jesus walks right down in there and picks up my burden, carries it to the Father, and Abba Father, “Daddy God” takes care of it for me.

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Thank you Lord, for taking this from me, removing it from my shoulders forever and lightening my burden.

The mindset of a Believer

 

I awoke today determined to have a great day emotionally.

 

Things happen in this world.  We see devastation, destruction, and death on a regular basis on the news.  But today I am determined to set my mind on what is good.  I set my mind on what is life, peace, and joy.

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To be full of life, peace and joy, I must set my mind on the Spirit of God according to Romans 8:6.  So on this day. I set my mind on the sun rising in the heavens declaring the Glory of God.  I set my mind on the birds who sing and trust in their creator to provide.  I set my mind on God who is my creator, sustainer, redeemer, savior, provider, protector.  He is my rock, my safety, my sanity, the Hope I cling to.  He is my strength, my purpose.  With Him in mind, my goal for today is to please Him.  My goal is to worship Him through my actions.

I determine, or at least will try, to thank Him every hour on the hour for something grand in my life –to fill my heart with overwhelming peace, unspeakable joy, and unlimited Love of the Father who accepts me just as I am.  I know that what I set my mind on, what I believe, and who I believe I am, determines my behavior, my thoughts, my attitude for life.  I just need to never forget who I am.  I am a child of God.  I am more than a conqueror.  I am adopted into God’s family.  I am a joint heir with Jesus Christ.  I am loved by God and created for His purpose.

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The art of Patience

il_fullxfull_179201578It snowed 2 inches here in my North Central Texas town.  That means delay for school and work.  We report to work at 9:45 instead of 8:00 as we usually do.

This snow is good for several reasons: 
 1.  Much needed precipitation for the area.
2.  Some can stay in bed an extra hour.
3.  For me it means extra time for devotional time with God.85307a

 DEVOTION FOR 12-10-12

Yesterday I was a bit down, but today I feel much better. I just need to learn to forgive myself for being human. I need to forgive everyone for just being human, imperfect people.  The world is changing and people change with it.  I am over 50 now and get nostalgic a lot, wishing the world was the way it used to be.  But the world influences all of us, even Christians.  And God understands that, and so should I:

 
 
Psalm 103
8 The Lord is merciful and gracious, Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy.
9 He will not always strive with us, Nor will He keep His anger forever.
10 He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor punished us according to our iniquities.
11 For as the heavens are high above the earth, So great is His mercy toward those who fear Him;
12 As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us.
13 As a father pities his children, So the Lord pities those who fear Him.
14 For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust.

So from now on, I am going to serve God the best way I know how. I am going to pray for a greater capacity to love.  To love not only the world as God loved the world and sent His only Son, Jesus; but also to love fellow believers and treat them the way I want to be treated.  I want to love and forgive, and build relationships with those with whom I will share eternity.

PLEASE BE PATIENT, GOD IS NOT FINISHED WITH _________ YET.

I will fill in the blank and be patient with everyone.

A FALLEN WORLD

8525477-a-pair-of-cottonwood-trees-on-a-cloudy-winter-dayThis time of year, I feel myself slipping into discouragement or depression.  It’s overcast a lot here in Texas, foggy the past few days.  And I need the sun to shine on me.  Everything is dying and dark.

It is now when I think about heaven a lot.  It will be sunny there.  No sorrow, no sin, no conflict.  The weight of the world will no longer be something to bear us down.

Today was hard especially.  I went to church and my pastor announced his daughter just gave birth to a child last night.  Although that is a great thing in the right circumstances, this time it grieved me.  The pastor’s daughter is not married.  She had an illegitimate child.  The pastors are not apologetic about it at all.  This bothers me a lot and makes me want to go to another church.  My husband like this church and the relationships he’s developed.  And we should both belong to the same church.  The church I like is more old school Church of God where they still have altar calls every Sunday and worship in the Spirit, not just what they planned on singing, but what they feel the spirit calling us to sing at the moment.  The church my husband and I attend now is more rock and I don’t like that either.

I am tired of this world and all the carnal living that I see growing in Christians these days.  Including me.  I am no exception.  This emotional up and down is not of God.  Jesus was full of joy all the time, and loved people all the time.  He was not judgemental toward people although he didn’t like the sin.

I try to be encouraging on these blogs, but I felt I needed to write my emotions and let them out.   Venting is always good so I don’t harbor the negative thoughts and feelings inside.

On top of this, I have a lot of struggles with my daughter which is a whole other story.

ComforterGod is still good.

He is still sovereign.

He is still in control.

I choose to praise Him even in my darkest hour.