I may be a minority here but I feel this way a lot here lately.
Beginning of life: all is exciting and new. Experiences mostly intriguing.
On into your teenage and young adult careers, we are focused on building and achieving.
Reaching into the middle aged or life comes to a high as we are about to reach are goal.
Into our older years, once our goal is reached, we slow down and take a look back
Now at the peak of our career, we no longer climb or move upward, we no longer grow.
Going nowhere!! Existing until our final day.
FROM THE HEART
by Terri Byars October 2000 to January 2001 /All rights reserved
All seems lost. Nowhere to go.
Want to leave. Hit bottom.
All is useless. What is the point?
I cannot do this anymore. Are you there, Lord?
Return me to the place of joy.
Trust. Rest. Confidence.
Confidence in You alone.
I want to forget. Laugh a little.
Live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh.
Read the word. Live in His love.
In Your light, Lord. Let me/I live there alone.
Get rid of darkness. Take me to the Light.
Not my will, but Your will be done, Lord.
Tears. Grief. Hopelessness.
Wondering what is wrong, how to fix it.
I can’t do it in my strength.
I cannot proceed until all my strength disappears.
A living sacrifice presented to God.
Tears. Grief. Brokenness. Hope.
Hope in God for the help of His presence.
I cannot stand. I have fallen.
I have to be carried. Lord, lift me up.
Total desperate dependence on the Lord.
A need. A longing. To be satisfied.
Never able to be filled. A need to be empty.
I can’t be filled until I am empty.
I cannot be satisfied until all my desires disappear.
Crucified. Dead to self.
Following Him closely every moment.
A need. A longing. To hear His heart.
A pure heart. Single-minded. Holiness.
I can’t see without His eyes.
I cannot walk, Lord, hold my hand.
Do nothing out of selfish ambition.
Focused inward. Self-importance.
What can be done to fix my problem?
It’s not about me and my problem.
It’s not most important to get my needs met.
Humility. Think of others.
Consider others needs above my own.
Focused outward. Self-abasement.
Other’s need are more important than my own.
Lord, what can I do for others?
God’s grace will abound toward you.
Single-minded, wholehearted devotion to God.
Affections. Desires. To have the answers.
Never knowing. A need to be dependent.
I can’t be secure until I let go.
I cannot be secure until I step forward without knowing.
Hang on loosely. Lean on Him.
Moment-by-moment clinging to Him.
Affections. Desires. Seek those things above.
Confidence in Him. He knows. He’s Daddy.
I cannot walk without holding His hand.
I cannot survive without looking to Him.
Falling. Crawling. Moving forward.
Trust myself. I can do it. I have the ability.
Try and try. Striving. Straining. Pressing.
I can’t keep going on my strength.
I cannot do this anymore without His Spirit.
Not my righteousness, but His.
Walking on. Press on toward the goal.
Trust Him. Availability. Faithfulness.
Keep my eyes on Jesus who endured the cross.
I will keep going. Earnestly pray. Have Faith.
Seek peace. Pursue righteousness.
RUN THE RACE TO WIN!!
I was talking to a nurse today who told me many patients proclaim, “I didn’t know it would hurt this much” when they come out of surgery. And they expect to be medicated until the pain is completely gone. But it is not always safe to be medicated that much. Sometimes we just have to live with some pain until we are healed. Medication is only to alleviate some of the pain, not necessarily to totally remove it.
That’s the way it is with our emotions too. Sometimes we want to totally get rid of the pain of rejection, depression, anger, hatred, emotional pain of abuse, etc. And that’s why I believe addictions are so much of a problem today. Whether it is gambling, drugs, alcohol, shopping, eating, watching TV or whatever one chooses to escape from the pain, many of us have succumb to addictions. I know I have my moments of trying to escape the pain of this world. How can we solve this problem?
Know That Pain Will Come, it’s a Promise
We were told there was going to be pain. Jesus said “In this world you will have trouble, but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” John 16:33. Jesus was a man full of sorry and He has grieved because of the state of man’s soul who has not trusted in Him. He told us that we should be ready for pain and sorrow. That means I should not expect to be happy every day. I have joy because Jesus is with me, supporting me through difficult times, but it is not always fun or easy or pleasant.
Know That There is a Solution, It’s also a Promise
Jesus said, “Be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.” He is always with us. He will never leave. He wants to carry our burdens. The bible is full of verses that comfort the soul. The greatest comfort is knowing that this fallen world is only temporary. One day I will pass on into the spiritual realm and live life with Jesus face to face. This world will pass away, but the love of the Lord lasts forever.
Learn to Live with Some Pain
Knowing that there will be pain helps me expect it and prepare for it. Knowing that it is temporary lets me realize that I won’t be in pain forever. Also as I grow older, I know that physical pain is a part of life. I seldom take pain medication. I just live with it for a while. I know it’s going away eventually, when He comes to take me Home to Heaven.
BE OF GOOD CHEER!!
Something exciting is available around the bend. I know it. It has to be. Because otherwise I would not be here.
There are many changes in life. One of them is retirement. I wouldn’t say I really retired in the classical sense. I just quit my job for several reasons that I need not go into in this blog. Having done that, however, I’m finding myself at home with not much to do. I realized that I have a lot of potential in me. There is talent in there somewhere. We all have gifts and abilities that should be used. Otherwise, why are we here? I have sat in my home and contemplated this for a few days. Watching TV, reading books, playing video games, and surfing the internet is fun, but is is not useful. There is no purpose in that for me. Who am I helping? So, I think it is time to start blogging seriously again. There may be some nuggets of truth, some encouraging words, or some happy, funny stories and poems that I can write that will improve someone’s day, make them feel better, or maybe even change their life for the better. Therefore, after 3 years, I am beginning my WordPress blog once again. I am looking forward to what God has in store for me around the bend. I am excited about life in general and how technology has made it so easy for us to influence a multitude of people on a daily basis. So be looking for my blogs. Let me know what you would like me to write about. Hopefully, you can comment on my posts to let me know if I have somehow encouraged you, or helped you discover new truths of life and God. Retirement will be fun now. I have a goal, a passion, a mission, and that is writing!!
ONE NATION UNDER GOD? INDIVISIBLE?
Sometimes as I watch America, the so-called “Christian Nation”, fall farther and farther away from the Faith of our Fathers, I wonder what God thinks about us now. How does God think about a nation who kills millions a year because a woman is not ready to give birth to a baby and take responsibility for her actions? How does God feel when we accept same-sex marriage as being a choice or a right when it goes totally against Romans chapter 1? How does God feel when Christians live in sin, drinking, gambling, having illegitimate babies? Sure, we all sin. None of us are righteous on our own merit, but it seems like Christians should look different from the world and grow more and more like Jesus and not more and more like the world. How does God feel when we go to Church just because it’s Sunday, or just because we want to meet a girl (or guy) or just because our Mom made us? When will we start seeking God, renewing our mind, becoming separate from the world?
God is still sovereign. God is still on the throne. I have to believe that, but I don’t see it. I have to believe it by faith because the word says it is true.
Where is God?
The sun is shining, but I barely see it. My heart is full of grief. “It rains on the just and the unjust” the Bible says somewhere. Sometimes I wonder, where is the justice in that? Joel Osteen, the pastor of maybe the biggest mega church in America, many times talks about the favor of God. “We have the favor of God” he says. If we are favored by God, why are Christians in poverty?
I’m still praying, I’m still believing. I live by faith, not by sight. God is still sovereign. He is good all the time. Lord Jesus, shower your presence on your people. Let us rise up and be blessed. Amen.
Come quickly, Lord, take us out of this mess.